Update.

It's about time for an update. :)

Pop Idol: didn't go. Too cold outside to be standing hours in line.
Weekend: went to my parents on thursday, visited grandma friday and went with my love to his parents on saturday to celebrate his mother's birthday. Came home on sunday, exhausted. *lol*

Today? Went to the dentist. I've had a toothache for months now and grandma was nice enough to lend me the money for it, otherwise I would never have been able to go. New dentist, after all I've moved since my last visit to a dentist, and I was afraid the new one would be evil. He wasn't. Nice, and thorough. Cost waaaay too much though, I had two cavities, one was done today and the last one will be taken care of in january.
Now my jaw is all sore... Owie.. The cavity was in my upper right row, in that tooth in the back. Which meant I had to almost sprain my jaw (can you do that?)... can't chew yet. So I had a nummy fruit smoothie for "dinner". Still hungry, dammit! *sigh*
Well... off to bed now anyway. Sleeeepy...

Audition cold feet.

OK. The oh so big Pop Idol audition is tomorrow. I'm really not sure if I want to go. I mean, I CAN sing, heck, I wouldn't even sign up for it if I couldn't, so I'm not worried about THAT. I am worried about my lack of self esteem regarding my looks though, and I worry that this might hinder my performance. And to be honest, I'm not pop star material. Not in the Britney kind of sense anyway.
But the audition last year was fun to do. Nerve-wrecking, but fun. And I was "lucky" enough to catch a cold the day before and had to switch songs from demanding to easy 'cause of that.
Now I haven't even decided on a song... 'cause I've been all "nooo, not going" the whole time. But my friends me to do it. Maybe they want to see me make a fool out of my self. :( Nah... Ahhhh! Dunno! *grr*


Good thing though, finally managed to get our fireplace lit. I'm a water sign, it's not natural for me to make fire, but I seem to have made it today. yay! The apartment is so cold that it's really neccessary.

Snow. Again. Sigh.

There was more snow yesterday. The forecast was that it would be warm enough for the snow to melt, but noooo we got MORE.
I don't know what it is, but the snow is getting on my nerves this year. I'm not particulary fond of winter, 'cause I always freeze so easily, but I've usually been cheered up by the first weeks of snow. Now it's just making me depressed. Knowing that it will stay like this 'till mid-march or even april, it's... too much. Hopefully I will adjust and... not be so damn irritated all the time. But how can I NOT be? I'm terrified of walking from our house down to the bus stop! It's a long, curved hill without a sidewalk, and people around here drive like maniacs. Too many wealthy, young, aggressive men that on snow turn into even more lethal killing machines the way they spin out of control down the streets. It's not that hard to understand, snow on the road, that gets packed after a little time, is slippery and trying to do a turn at normal speed just doesn't work! That will, in BEST case, give you a slide across the street, worst case hit a pedestrian or another car.
People are stupid. And I have to risk my life everytime walking down that street, the ONLY route I can take mind you, every day. ArrgH!
And snow is cold. Ick.

It IS beautiful when it's still daylight outside and a blue sky, and sunshine, like it was today. And such cold morning skies are always amazingly beautiful in pale pastels. Like today. So, of course, there are SOME things that are nice about snow and winter. But right now the negative sides kinda controls my mind...
Sorry about the ranting. But this is after all my blog and my place to rant if I feel like it *cheeky grin*

Sleepy season.

It's here again. That time of year where I feel I walk around like some zombie, just waiting for spring. It's pitch black out already at 4.30pm, and it going to get even "worse" before getting better. When sunset is? Don't ask me, dunno. I only have lections at school two days a week, the rest I study at home, and naturally sleep longer. Up at 6.30 when I have school, and usually up around 8 when I don't. The earliest I've been able to crawl out of bed this last week, was 9.30. Seriously! And even then I still feel sleepy when I get up. *sigh*
No wonder my favorite seasons are spring and summer, huh?
Luckily I'm going to Germany in two weeks. It's only a 12 day stay, but they have more daylight there now.

Mmm... made carrot muffins. A friend is coming over for dinner (he ordered lasagna *lol*) and it's "that" time of the month and I'm craving something sweet... so yah, muffins seemed like a good idea. :)

Questions and answers

Sorry about all the posts today... It's been a slow day and.. I've had lots to say I guess :D

Nicked this from my friend neelie's Blog. It's mostly in Norwegian though.

1. How do you feel right now?
- Sleepy, it's late, and... still a bit annoyed at myself (ah.. let it GO you idiot!)

2. What have you done today?
- Not much! Slept in (was home real late yesterday), fumbled around online, changed the bedding in our piggie-cage and read some more in one of my books for school.

3. Are you looking forward to anything?
- Yule, naturally! And kinda looking forward to while kinda NOT looking forward to going to Germany. I love airports and flying tho, so I can say I'm looking forward to that :D

4. Is there something you aren't exactly looking forward to?
- Going to Germany for some reasons. My grandma is extremely difficult now and... not looking forward to facing that.

5. What's your favorite food?
- Salmon or trout with taters and sour cream and nummy lemon pepper. Or my tuna pizza with spicy cheese sauce (no tomato in it). And a type of indian chicken curry you can buy in a kit here, where you have to add chicken and sour cream and.. uh.. dunno.

6. What do you drink at parties?
- Depends. Usually just water or iced tea, but I sometimes have a glass of wine or baileys.

7. What do you usually wear?
- Ugh, tired clothes.. Haven't had any money for renewing my wardrobe for a while now. But I have some real cool pants with a sort of evil disney tree embroided along one leg. Love that one. I also love skirts.

8. Favorite music? (band/artist)
- Difficult. I love so much, and different things for different occasions. But ok, I'll list some. The Beatles (1966 and after), The Ark, Norah Jones, Dido, Rammstein (shuttup), Sarah McLachlan, Smashing Pumpkins, Ben Christophers..

9. Do you hate anyone?
- No. I don't think I'm capable of hating. I do dislike some people tho. Like those idiots from yesterday.

10. Does the place you grew up mean a lot to you?
- No, not really. It was small and narrow-minded, and didn't have much to offer when I grew up. It's OK for small children, but not from 10 and up.

11. Are you satisfied with your looks?
- No. *lol* Who is? I do have some days when I feel I look better than usual, but nah... I am too critical to my own image and it's probably not good for me.

12. What's your biggest dream?
- Right now? Risking that I sound totally riddiculous; winning the lottery. There isn't a day where I don't worry about money at least once, and it's so tiring. *sigh*
But I would love to be able to publish a novel, or maybe more.

13. When was the last time you were in love?
- I guess since I'm still with my love, I would say... now? *lol*

14. What makes you laugh?
- My love, Simen, stupid movies like "BASEketball" and "Dude, where's my car?", guinea piggies.

15. What are you doing right now?
- Nicking neelie's answer here. "Isn't it obvious?"

16. What's your favorite subject in school?
- We don't have subjects in that sense, but I love every lecture that has to do with writer's workshop and movies! :D

17. When are you at your happiest?
- When I'm enjoying a warm cup of coffe/tea under a blanket, with a piggie snuggled in my arm and watching a good movie/reading a good book.

18. Who's your role model?
- I have no idea. There are some writers I really admire, and people around me that make an impact.

19. Who's your favorite TV-character?
- Lorelai Gilmore from Gilmore Girls. I admire that actress for being able to talk THAT fast *lol*

20. Have you ever been drunk?
- No. Tipsy, but not drunk. I'm too much of a control freak to let that happen. Nor do I enjoy alcohol that much.

Snow!!!

My oh my, three entries in one day. When is the madness coming to an end? :P

Around 4.pm we had this season's first snowfall. Real wet and soggy, but enough to cover the ground. Lookie here!




The angle in this last photo is the same as in the rainbow photo I took some time in October (I think?).


Oh, and had to share a photo of Monster's adorable Mickey Mouse ears. Gotta love that little furball! He loves to snuggle up in your arms and just get itched behind his ears :)

Wacky colours in this photo. Or, Monster is OK, but my sweater is supposed to be black *lol*


This is so unfair! I want a free iPod also! But nooo, we're not giving away any to those non-US citizens! Bah... Keep your ruddy iPods. The Creative Zen-thingy my love has is way better (and has more disc space)... Bah... Humbug.

Oh, and still annoyed by the Rammstein concert. I think, maybe mostly annoyed with myself 'cause.. ahh... difficult to explain, but I'll try 'cause I need to vent on this. See, when I got out of the mosh pit and stood on the side, the Rammstein stage helpers (easily identifiable by their white shirts and dark ties) were at times standing right inside the railing which I was standing straight in front of. I could easily have asked them (in frikkin GERMAN, geez! now how cool would that have been!) to get my love some autographs. I could have asked, and even if they'd reclined, I would have done an effort. But I was too chicken to do it. AND another thing, two girls standing next to me, was waved at by one helper and handed backstage passes. I thought at first it was 'cause the helper was supposed to collect groupies for the band's enjoyment, but after the concert was over, I saw some younger guys with those passes also... I COULD have asked for one of these! Never mind if they had denied me, but then I would have at least tried! I mean, I don't really care about this, but my love is a fanatic fan of those guys and... arrgh.. I'm stupid. Those helpers, they were so.. darn available! At previous concerts, where I actually WANTED to get anywhere backstage, there were never such people to ask, but here they were standing straight in front of me, AND on top of that, *I* would have been able to address them in German, which would probably surprise them, and maybe amuse them.. ahh.. I'm dumb.

OK. Vented now.

Niiiice... Yay, now I have my own ghetto name!

My goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Fellatio Shizzlemah.
What's yours?
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Lovely, isn't it? Dunno what Shizzlemah means tho..

I also have my own fairy!
Hex Jupitershimmer
She is a mysterious and secretive fairy
She lives in places hexed and tainted by black magic
She is only seen when the first flowers begin to blossom
Get your own fairy here! :)


OOh, and there's more!


The Louis Farrakhan African Name Generator Results
From this day forward, you shall be known by all your brothers and sisters as:
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You can get your own here :)

And, you guessed it, there's even more!

Your pagan name is
Maeve River Oak

Get your own here.
(and read the instructions, they're funny!)


Ah, and this!
Your Pokename is: Drowtung

Profile
You live in the frigid tundra of Finland, and your diet consists mostly of macaroni and cheese, wolves and industrial runoff.

Characteristics(Combat and Non-combat)
You can breathe poison. You can breathe bricks. You can float in air. You can puke maple syrup.

Natural Enemies
Your natural enemy is Lomander.

OOh... always knew there was something with maple syrup.
You can find you own pokéname here.


You'll find all of these and more at Yahoo if you need something to occupy yourself with. :)

Rammstein concert.

OK, so I survived. :)
It was a cool show, I guess. My problem with it, was all the idiots that were there with me. I'm a teenybopper-moshpit veteran (I used to be *please don't hit me* a Backstreet Boys fan, years ago, and went to several concerts along with other teenybopper concerts), and I would say, capable of handling such situations... with teenyboppers. Absolutely not with 7ft tall lumps of lard and muscles drunk moronic retards! Arrrgh! I'm not exactly a dwarf, standing 5'7 tall, but I couldn't see anything, nor BREATHE, and with those idiots pushing and punching just for the fun of it, I retired to the back. Without my love, who stayed in the moshpit (hey, he's tall and has more muscles to defend himself with). The result was that I was standing alone on one side of the stage, and this obviously had to be an invitation for other drunk idiots to hit on me and not take a hint. OK, hint #1 was stepping far away from them. When they followed (one guy in particular), and still stuck to me like glue, hint #2 I poked them HARD in the side with my elbow. This didn't help either! Ahh... so I left, and when I tried to sneak back to where I stood, others had realized that it was a nice place to stand also, and it was too packed for me to see anything. So I just stood in the back, not getting much out of the show. *sigh*

But dang, everyone claims that Rammstein are so tough, METAL dudes... Nah.. They're like cozy teddybears, only that they love leather and pyrotechnics. *lol*

Witches Weekly

How do you incorporate your spirituality into your daily life?
It's the little things, prayers, candles. I try to let my faith shine through in my actions and this way honor my beliefs.

Does your daily life hinder or support your beliefs or practices?
No, not really. Because I am a soletary pagan and not a firm believer in regular rituals, it doesn't bother me much.

What do you wish you could do more for your beliefs on a more regular basis? Be more true to them. I would really love to live as a vegetarian, but that's hard and much more expensive than what I can afford right now.

Compulsive things.

I was thinking about the weird things I do yesterday. I'm sure everyone has them, but there are certain routines and things you HAVE to do.
Like me. Before I go to bed, I have to : go to the bathroom and blow my nose (I hate getting "whistle nose"). Before I leave home I: check that nothing's on in the kitchen, check that my computer is turned off and when I lock the door, I always try it afterwards to see if it's really locked.
And I'm convinced I have even more weird habits, but can't think of any right now.

Finished my short story on Sunday (had to hand it in yesterday). I did manage to put a giraffe in there! Yay! It has a giraffe, a kinky Pinocchio and vengeful piggiebanks.
And no, I don't take any drugs. Unless you count coffee and staying up late writing.
OK, I'll explain. I did an atempt at writing a dream sequence. In dreams you encounter many weird things you don't even question and jump right into the next weird thing. That's what I tried to do. Dunno if I made it tho, but that was my plan. And it was real fun :D

Going to Oslo tonight, my love is dragging me along to a Rammstein concert. I'm a bit skeptical, but it might be fun. I'll tell all about it tomorrow.

Gingerbread cookies, Bridget Jones and two little crazy monkeys.

My love's niece (8) and nephew (5) visited us with their mum yesterday, for a gingerbread cookie baking session. How come youngsters have so much energy? And always have to shout instead of talking? They're sweet kids, but I fear I have too little patience.. I am so not wanting any kids in a looong time! I have enough "babies", my guinea pigs. We gave away two of them to our visitors, as birthday presents. So now we have Pinky and Tresko left of the babies and of course lovely Monster and cutiepie Lilo.

Saw the new Bridget Jones movie yesterday. I absolutely adore the books, and the first movie was pretty good also. This one I can't really make up my mind about. They've done some major changes from the book, some obvious, others not so obvious. The whole point about the books in my opinion, is Bridget's not very trustworthy reencountings of events (a diary will always be subjective), ie. Rebecca the "Barracuda" wanting Mr. Darcy (Bridget doesn't exactly portray her very nicely). In this movie in particular, a lot of that subjectivity is lost, which is only natural in a movie.. but the story looses some very funny points, sadly. BUT the movie has added some unexpected things also, that are almost equally funny. And the touch of slapstick is also.. very fun. Hilarious fight between Cleaver and Darcy!

*sigh* Very, very tired now... the movie was a late night showing (started 11.30) and I was home around 2 am. And was awoken at 7.45 am by love's nephew (they spent the night here) yelling, "Mommy, I've made poopy, come wipe!" at the top of his lungs.. haha. kids...

This cheered me up! :)

"Sorry Everybody"

*sigh*

Blogger hasn't been working for me the last couple of days, so I haven't been able to update. Not that I have anything in particular to tell... Today is just a bummer day. I had my job interview yesterday, and was told afterwards that I would have gotten the job if it hadn't been for my trip to Germany next month (a 12 day trip I'm taking because it's the only time I can do it and my grandparents are both very sick...). Real bummer, I wanted that job. *sigh*

OK, I did have some happy updates on friday. I went to a "Body Balance" class at the fitness center. It's a mix of yoga, tai chi and pilates. It was fun! And I'd been wanting to go for so long, but haven't had the guts to do it.
It was more work than I thought though. Even today, sunday, my abs are so so sore.. owie.

Ooh, and I got an invitation for the Idol audition (Norwegian version of "American idol"). Haven't decided if I'll go or not, but maybe I will. :)

Don't read this!

Oh well... apparently you didn't listen to me.
I don't have much to say today. I'm still really upset about the whole election. I'm supposed to be well started with my short story by now, but it just isn't happening. I can't focus, I'm so angry. And I can't even write something flaming political, 'cause that's not the point. It's supposed to be a straigh forward short story.

Of course, I have a couple of ideas. I want to write about a giraffe. No idea why, but a giraffe seems like a good idea. But at the same time I want it to be serious, not something silly. Aw poo.

I should seriously have done the dishes also. And planned something for dinner. Oh, and stopped by the fitnes center. But I can't focus on any of these things. I'm just not myself right now. I worry about the future of the world, and nothing anyone can tell me, will make it better.

Oh, and I have a job interview on Saturday. For a music/dvd/puter games shop. :)

'tis a sad, sad day...

... for the global community and the future of America.

Could someone one just come and beam me up and take me away? And I don't even live in the US...

How people can be SO foolish, I cannot grasp. What's more important? That someone of the same sex you don't KNOW marry, or that you actually have a future?
Bush will drive the country down in the dumps. The deficit will just grow and grow, and we may be facing another crack like the one in 1929. Better start saving up canned food!
And the environment... buh bye! What do we need trees for? Oil rigs are much prettier!
Oh, and terrorists? They'll naturally stop terrorizing everyone, 'cause Bush does such a great job with them already.
Now, I'm not saying that I agree with the terrorists, but it's that kind of arrogance that has some of them doing what they do in the first place!

The whole world is shaking its heads at you, America. Too bad we can't tell you "too bad, now you'll have to live with him", because we have to do so too.
And I fear that won't be easy. Bush alienates the US from it's allies around the world, sadly. I'm not exaggarating when I say that the term "American" has become something far from positive here. If you say "American" to any european now, they'll immediately think of egoism, fanaticism and blood thirst. These are not my opinions, but opinions in general over here. It's frightening.
It's a polarization that feels like the beginning of a new cold war. And I fear that I don't see the world in colours today, nor the future.

Sorry.

Good luck!

To you americans voting today, good luck! :)
I've heard of some problems with voting several places already, and I sincerely hope they manage to sort them out.
But, without sounding too dramatic, I fear the battle will be ended in court. It's too close for comfort, and who knows what the two parties will do to drag the other down in the mud.

I must say I have a hard time understanding American politics. For instance, you only have two parties (or, two parties that count for something), and they're both trying to reach the majority of the voters, which again makes them lead basically the same politics with minor adjustments.
When comparing US politics with Norwegian politics I kinda feel happy I live where I live. Although our politicians (at least some of them) are idiots, the system works. We have several parties that can be arranged in a line from left wing to right wing. At the very left we have the communist party, which only have a handful members. Then the Socialistic left wing party, which aren't completely nutcases, but still a little too radical to get the majority of the vote. Next comes the Labour party, which are a little left of the center and have quite a chunk of the voters on their side (and have traditionally had so since the end of WW2). In the "center" you have the Center party (basically farmers), the Left wing party which no one votes for 'cause they have no distinct profile or politics and aren't that much left when it comes to it, and the last center party is the KRF (translated it stands for something like "Christian peoples party"). OK, onto the right wing. The Right Wing party is the next on the line, and have a nice chunk of the voters also. Then comes the "Progress party", which in my opinions are a bunch of real idiots, 'cause they "flip flop" all according to what the public opinion says. They're also racists, which shines through in their origin, they were started by the leader of a hate group.
OK, what's the point of this description? If I were to place the republicans and democrats anywhere on this line, the republicans would be at the same spot as the "Progress party", maybe even further to the right. The dems wouldn't be far away, at somewhere between the "Progress party" and the Right Wing party. And Nader's party would be somewhere in the center!
There is a much greater span in Norwegian politics, which gives you several alternatives, and alternatives that are different.
Oh, and we all have free health care. And unemployment payments if we loose our jobs.
All of these things make me puzzled about US politics. I find it hard to believe that anyone would even consider tax cuts instead of ensuring every citizen proper health care.

Ugh... I'm too sleepy to make any sense in this all.. Sorry about that.

PS: Very happy now! Our phone company (a DSL phone line company) now offers not only free calls within Norway (cell phones not included), but also to most of western Europe and the US. Which includes Germany, and that means I can phone my family there as much as I want! Yay! :D

Samhain and visitors.

I hope everyone has a nice Samhain celebration yesterday :)
I had two of my friends from back "home" (as in where I lived before I moved down here) come down on Saturday for a regular pumpkin feast! It was supposed to be a girls' night, but I ended up with so much food that we invited some of my love and my friends from around here also. We had pumpkin soup, pumpkin pie, pumpkin muffins and fried pumpkin. Oh, and gingerbread cookies. Everything prepared by me in two days... ahhh.. I thought I would go crazy, but I didn't. I love pumpkins. It's something about them being so.. fat! They look adorable, whether carved or not.
We had three. The small one, where I carved the Fellowship (it looked so much better than in those stupid photos below here), a medium greenish one, where I carved abstract thingies; stars and squares ect. And the big one, where my love carved ghosts and a tombstone. We kept them all indoors tho. I wanted to put one of them outside, but was met by massive protests : "But we want to seeee theeeeem!" :P

Most of the people left around midnight. But my old friends had to sleep over, as the last train had left hours earlier. Their sleepover was planned tho, so it was no problem. We slept in long, had a nice and long breakfast and spent most of the Sunday just catching up and relaxing in our living room. Oh, and mending our sore throats (four hours of Playstation SingStar does something to your vocal cords).


OK, that's about it for Sunday. Now today. Had lectures at school. I have lectures mondays and tuesdays, but the rest of the week I stay home and read. Anyway, school today. It was painful to get up that early (always is), but I wouldn't want to miss a lesson. Especially not this week. Writer's workshop! We got our short stories back today (about 6 weeks since we handed them in) and I got some nice comments on mine. Made me happy! :D We're supposed to hand in a new short story in two weeks. Need to come up with a good idea, so I'll be thinking about that for some days now.. :)